Thy shall not..

moving out.

2006-03-04T21:37:00.000-08:00

heyy guys. ive decided to move my blog into a new zone. not gonna use blogspot no more. decided to go with wordpress, thanks to some help from fad. haha. but it'll take time. for now, im not gonna close down this blog yet. however, ive starte blogging on my new site:

http://hecticworld.wordpress.com

go check it out. oh yah, there'll be no tagboard. so just leave me a comment if u wanna do so aite. this new blog of mine shall have two categories: private & public.
for public, ani damn soul can read the entries there. haha. for private, u need to obtain a password from me before being able to read it. this is to prevent intruders. haha. guess the blogging world aint a safe place. for those of u thinking of disenabling javascript to skip my password, dun try. it wont work. haha. password-protected.

so u noe wad to do if u want the password. give me a call or tag on this blog. haha.

til then. chiowz.

ady's my name. soccer's the game.

2006-02-25T21:27:00.000-08:00

training on friday was cool. ran 22 rounds around the field non-stop. with the last 2 rounds being a full sprint. ha. den, had a "drill match"... added with a few pushups. actually alot. haha. had two glorious chance to score superb goals, but damn, had to compliment faizal's keepin skills. he always had an extra foot stuck out. haha. at least its good for the team. so no complains. haha

ive bought "handcuffs" for my lover. she loves it. i love it. hehe

my two adorable nieces are at my house rite noe. dey slept overnite here. fun~

gonna visit my gramps soon. before that, hafta wash the car. haha. so ya, till den, chiowz. btw, sori for a short entry. updates soon. =p

cool !!

2006-02-23T07:22:00.000-08:00

at least someone was gentlemen enuff to talk it out. nyeah.

aniwaes. i got myself a new wife!! i love her to bits!! im not gonna let her go. ever. my eyes detected n reacted when i saw her. oh mann. how on earth could i be this lucky? ive laid my hands on her. it felt smooth. rough sometimes. =p no one, i mean NO ONE can take her away from me!! pictures of her shall be uploaded tommorow evening!! but yah, just some description of her. she has NICE ASSETS. abit dark. k, i mean really dark. someone who;d be able to attract any passerby. ooh boi. cant wait to get my hands on her tommorow again!! so, let's all wait for her pic heh. btw, she's named KRAZE..

ya all excited to see her? i am too.

aniwae. just finished practising econs stuff. essays n essays n more essays. heads full of MONETARY POLICIES, FISCAL POLICIES, supply-side policies. damn. haha. have soccer training tmr. cant wait. oredi missed last wed's trnng. heard it was fun n demanding. i like. A-DIV tournament in 27 days time. lets hope JJ will get the honours :) JJ JAGA!

hmmx, waiting for my mum's supper cooking. maggie mee. haha. cant wait. till then, chiowz!

p.s : dont think too much about hu KRAZE is. you'll get to see her soon. u'll be jaw-dropped i tell ya. ;p

dumbfcuk.

2006-02-21T04:14:00.000-08:00

fcuk.

heard bout a petty quarrel between a j2 SLUT and a j1. damn. msg to that j2, get a life. u jet-assed person. need ruggers to help u out heh? pathetic. watever it is. better stop quick, before ady intervenes. "oooooooo.."

oh yah. my former civics tutor is back. her hairstyle, DARTH-VADER look-alike. woo hoo. haha. glad to see that smile on her again. the class welcums u back =)

aniwae. didnt go pc todae. got excused cause soccer was oredi hard n physical enuff. ha. can? so, went home and rested. darn tired. was freaking sleepy in school. then, went to play abit of pool with my braders. haha. almost made it a clean sweep. damn that white ball. ha.

oh. not forgetting. yesterday had drama class during malay lesson. guess who conducted it? SANI HUSSEIN of coz. those of u who dunno him, he's the inspector in POLICE N THIEF. the "lethal weapon" guy. ha. he's kinda cool. the way he brings himself up. but then again, is it all true, or just a show? ha. i wrote a sajak for the first time since 17years++ . haha. its very mind-boggling. cool. other peeps one were way awesome. :) looking forward to next week's lessons. haha.

guess i cant go for soccer trng tmr. hurt my leg. right calf muscle-pull. darn. sigh. wanna train hard still! play or no play. i wanna improve my own play!

p.s : my nike street soccer shoes still for sale! price negotiable. =p

till then, chiow!!

studyyyyy..

2006-02-18T18:11:00.000-08:00

just ate breakfast. chicken rice. haha

yesterday's GPA wasnt how i WANTED it to be. but it was DEFINITELY how i expected it to be. JJ didnt qualify for top 10. but nonetheless, kudos to them. it wasnt a waste of time making that journey to nyjc. ferstly, i saw alot of TALENTS of those on stage. was awwwed by some. especially the ajc peeps who acted as babies.. damn cute i tell ya! n ya, i tink i oso had to play a apart for the MCS FAMILY. gave them my support. can? n yah, last but certainly not least, got lots n lots n lots n lots n lots of EYE-WASHERS(literal translation from malay.) khe khe khe. some smiled. cool. oh yah, was wearing the topman longsleeve. dressed up quite NICELY :) after the whole event, left at 6.45pm... decidided to eat at jp banquet. arrived there at freaking 8pm! haha. i ate n left at 9pm. ha.
oh yah, some said that i wasnt my USUAL self yesterdae? not smiling, not as noisy as before? hmmz..i was ok, i tot. ha. nevermind that. then yah, went home, washed up n SLEPT. =p

hmmz. am having econs test tmr. econs drq. i just hate it. gotta study abit. darn it. how do i get in love with econs? how? i need to. ha.

oh yah. ive decided that i shant get into any, i mean any, relationship in jc life. we're better off as friends for now. not prepared to cope with studies, a-div championship, n FRENS. :)

*ps. treasure ur frens ya.

vindicated. i am selfish. i am right. i noe im right. i swear im right. swear i'll do this on my own.

so sorrie.

2006-02-17T02:03:00.000-08:00

very very sorrie for the lack of updates recently :)

anihoots, lots n lots of things happened while i was away from blogging. can? haha.

ferzly. school life. getting more and more demanding. but fun at the same time. for soccer, im enjoying every training session as it comes. so proud that my stamina has gone up, though not too good. ha. and ive finally got a footballing brain better than before. However, abit unhappy with the way things are working out. i see many of the players lazy to come for long jogs and training, yet got the cheeks to just come for matches. wdh? angry can? hmmx. but, i'll just work on myself. :) and yah, past few weeks got many many funny incidents. lots of jokes heard. more new frens made. cool~ n my sms-partner is ever shooo sweet. like "hello panda" liddat. ;p hmmx, the olevel results were released last fridae.. happy for some, sad for some. but overall, congrats to everi single one to at least accomplished one phase in life. smile?
oh yah, ive been nicknamed "adidas" by sum1. haha. cool yet funny. hmmx.

social life. its been a long time since ive realli hang out with my B.K peeps. so sori. very very busy in school. come home, tired. gonna plae soccer with them soon. hold on ya? on top of that, glad that all of them who took their olevel results made it to wer they want. cheers. anihoots, i need cash $$$ !!! i wanna get new street soccer shoes. my current one is causing a damn painful ache on the arche of my foot. no. bad. anione want to buy ? its a nike totallissimo (red) selling at $40. 2months old. condition : 7.5/10 still good.

many peeps been asking me bout my sms-partner. my answer, dont ask. coz i wont say. buwek!! dont bother figuring either. khekhe.

k, got loads of work to do, cya all around!!

P.S : HEYY, tmr gonna attend GEMA-PUISI-ARTISTIK (GPA) at NYjc( sucky school peeps).. all the best to the actors!! JJ KEMAMA! ;P

yayyness!!

2006-02-04T20:41:00.000-08:00

forget the past. look to the future.
ive seen enuff to leave.
cant keep the promise heh. well, goodluck to u.

been very happy for the past week. cause of a few reasons though. firstly, ive recovered fully from flu.i can finally train properly for soccer. haha.

i also got to start msgin sum1. heheheheh.. big smile. =p funny person the latter is. haha. beri beri kiiutt. haha. get to noe the person better. (btw guys, dun ask me hu that person is. hahaha)

been going out frquently lately. just yesterday, went to dine at PIZZAHUT at Lot 1 with my og mates. kinda fun-NY.. haha.. duh, its always people laffing at me instead of me getting to laugh at their jokes. maebe next time i just keep quiet heh. i make joke, they say i lame. i make lame remarks, they say im funny. sometimes, its just suppa hard to please ppl. haha . well, whatever it is, i now noe that u can never ever expect everything to go the way u want it to be even if u noe u have tried everythin..rite og 3?

OG 3.
-U guys never fail to amuse me. both good and bad. but of coz. more of the good side la. well, us OGLs (me, zai, shimei, serena) have done our best to get u guys tuned in to the jj environment. everything, orientation..jj nite.. revelation. outings. chill out sessions. we really enjoyed em. we've even given some of our views and some advices. n still, i seem to get a weird aura saying that almost 80% of u guys aint staying.. except those that got to be ogls/shadows?? (btw, didnt get to congratulate em.. so, melvin, xinyi, yueqi.. CONGRATS! ) hmmx.. i wonder y? issit becos u get turned off by the principle, some of the counsellors and the scary reality of the olevel results? well. i may be mean. but i'll just say it. i thought you guys are matured enuff to be able to ignore all these little petty issues and still, appreciate the other things that happened in jjc? i noe.. the draggy principal's speec is unbearable at times.. but come to think of it again. he is one who really really takes our welfare seriusly. as in, we are the only jc that allows its students to retake their promos until they get a pass. that's like "wow". for if that wasnt available, id be joining u guys as a jc 1 ya noe. im stupid. but ive been given the chance to prove myself in the alevels. and also,as a soccer player..im so so grateful he agreed with the MOE to allow for a synthetic field to be placed. and ya, he even designed the PD block himself.. wad more could u ask? its all for us. and besidesthe pricipal.. are u really going to leave JJC and forsake the frens u have.hu'd expect u to be their long-time fren..as alot mention, JC frens are ur live-frens.. u may argue.. even if we aint in the same school, still can be frens rite? well, u reflect. wads the probability? hmmx..but then again.. u guys have been great, while it lasted la. so, if u do decide to leave, for any reasons or so, i wish u all the best. i wont forget u. but i still cant deny, definitely, apart of u wud want to stay? rite? y not build on that? if ur results are good, wad does jjc not have that other better jcs wud? hmmx..i leave it to u to decide yea guys..

(WHOAH.. that took a whole lot from me. ive been deciding whether i shud post the entry or not. but i decided, maebe i shud. n if u can accept it, well done. if no, i cant do anything. :( )

on a brighter side.. ive finally been able not let things around me affect me to a great extent. let it be. for eg, if it wasnt meant to be, BYE! i aint waiting. i'll just give u my support.

ok..gotta go now..im gonna update soon enuff. for now, going to sis's house for lunch. adios!!

(u guys. dun hate me. i love u guys. try to see it in a positive light.)

it aint no lie. baby, bye bye bye.

fatigue.

2006-01-21T20:58:00.000-08:00

i guess that the activities ive been doin for the past two weeks are taking a toll on my body. sigh. feeling very sick n exhausted for no obvious reason. n the worst thing is, there's a damn damn damn damn BIG ULCER on my right cheek!! n its causing an infection in the interior of my mouth!! arrhh..

went sentosa yesterdae.. it was not how i expected..n how i did not expect.. get it?? coz.. i expected alot from F1 n F4 to come.but they didnt.. so i tot, this would be boring..but, somehow, its was FUN-packed!! HAHHAA... dunking ppl into the sea.. getting peeps in n out of the sea..coz each time they get out, i'll SAND them n so they have to get back in.. hahha.. then, we played truth N dare .. kinda cool.. one truth question dat was asked to someone(obviously not me) , wat was the most eroctic dream uve had? describe. WADABUBBA!! hahahha kk, left sentosa in rainy conditions. lightning everywhere.. haha.. cheered in the bus.. my head put on my body leh..!! die. get it? haha then, ate at banquet at harbour front shopp centre. reached home at freaking 11.45pm!! left house at 7.00am!! haha..oh yah, that was due to a frenly soccer match against chinese high jc..haha.. won 3-1.. NOT convincing though.

hmmx.. like some have mentioned...got to knoe more people better..haha..cool.. hmmmz, gonna cut hari todae..maebe after this..haha.. well, seriusly dumbfounded of wat hairstyle to cut. haha.. oh well. guess it'll be e normal one. haha.. klah, more updates soon!! cya!

p.s : JJ KUCHI KUCHI WAWA !!

absent from sch.

2006-01-13T05:28:00.000-08:00

didnt go to school today. knees were painful. finally decided to visit the doctor, after almost a year. sigh.. results? well, not too bad..but not good either..

the fact is.. my knee cap was displaced almost a year ago. n i didnt consult a doctor coz i thought of letting it heal itself.. i didnt know how serious it was.. so, just now, the doctor revealed to me about why i am feeling all this pain. my knee-cap is actually almost back to full recovery.. n that is why im feeling the pin.. coz, the tissues are trying to close the small gap left.. *ouch*.. so yah.. thats it.. but being the stubborn guy who doesnt listens to doctors advice, ive decided that i'll continue to do whatever sport i want.. hehe.. oh yah, here's one of the x-ray photos of the knee.. hehe..

see that gap between the knee-cap??

anihoots.. u guys.. my tagboard has suddenly been bombarded by lawrence-fanatiques.. hehe.. xinyi?? hahhaha.. aniwae..being the good ogl i am.. i'll just write some stuffs about lawrence so that u can get to know him better aitez?? here goes.. ( xinyi, u better be thanking me hor!)

Lawrence:

He's name is Lawrence Ng. Most people call him Lawrence.. In his I/C , there appears the name Lawrence too.. Lawrence simply does things the way he likes.. coz he's Lawrence.. Lawrence has a pair of "Special Weapon" Converse shoes.. its mainly white n blue. Lawrence is a basketball. i mean, BASKETBALLER. he has a brother who is an ex-jjcian and is now a part-time P.E teacher in the school. Lawrence was the Family Head of F1. N also an ogl for og4. Lawrence has a father who is working in the school too. Every morning, they'd come to school in their Hyundai car. Lawrence is in 05S11. He usually hangs out with the soccer guys in his class. Lawrence has black basketball shoes. k, dats all.

HAHHAHAHHAHA... OBVIOUS RITE? well xinyi, hope it helps.. NOT! hahha.. okok.. actualli, my entry is quite rubbish.. haha.. post again soon.

disclaimer: im gona dance mambo durin CNY celebs! woohoo.. hahhaa.

Selamat Hari Rayer Haji!!

2006-01-09T19:28:00.000-08:00

baa baa.. baa baa!! (use the sheep sound to read that! )

haha. some things that you cant just forget during rayer haji.. lol .. the miracle in the event is the tears in the sheep's eyes when they're slaughtered. always, i would turn sombre n all during this day.. recollecting the story of our prophet and how he was willing to sacrifice his only son for god's wish. the belief and faith in him was truly admirable.. but sad to say, not many muslims now have that strong will anymore. event i hafta admit.. i do not obediently complete my 5 prayers a day.. sigh.. when will i change?

aniway, ORIENTATION CAMP 06 was fantabulouos.. the response from the j1s... darn awwed!! i could see in their eyes how much they didnt want the camp to end.. bet that if GTS(only campers will noe this) would have asked for extension, all would go havoc as during JJ NITE.. hehe.. okok.. OG 3.. mixed with all sorts of characters.. the ferz time i saw them, oh boi. i thought to myself. "man, its gonna be difficult.." haha.. but, now.. IM SO PROUD OF DEM.. look at how they've blossomed into a true blue JJCIAN.. kudos to u guys.. eyy, dun forget me kaes.. haha.. OG outing soon!

HEADLINE:
a lot of people are saying that im cute and i have nice eyes?? yessa. they noticed.. (wahaha.thick skinned assy guy!)

ok..heading to gramps place later..cant wait to meet the cuzzins.. haha. n once again.. SLAMAT HARI RAYER HAJI!!

guess who's back.

2006-01-04T01:37:00.000-08:00

i wonder..i wonder.. wad colour shall i choose?

haha. still contemplating on which colour to pick for my soon-to-be mp3 player. haha. i sold off my IPOD shuffle to a fren at a f**king cheap price. i MISS my ipod. but had to sell it cos wasnt using it that much either. :p thx haiqel. if not, it'd be at some other people's hands. haha

niwae..im gonna receive a creative zen nano plus! woo hoo. i loike. same capacity as my shuffle. i THINK im gonna get it next week? well. still deciding on whether to get, silver/black/white/orange . haha.. help me choose???

so many colours!!! arrgghh...

niwae, besides dat. ive not been updating coz im too caught up with sch. im an OGL!! (orientation group leader) !!!! its fun. and orientation camp is TOMORROW!!!!! cool! i hafta admit that its great to be an ogl, and the kind of response you get from the campers heh, sure makes my day. haha. so, yah, wont be receiving any updates till next week i suppose.

school has started. lotsa homework to hand in. WAIT!! i have not completed em'. die.

oh yah. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! i noe its abit late. haha.but wad heck. till den.. chiowz!!

*its only when you're tired that you show ur true colours :)

ke-chinnggg!! no $$$$ !!

2005-12-24T22:26:00.000-08:00

finally.. ady has spent his money too much in a month!! oh mann. that's bad. bad bad sign. some things that i bought or paid..

-"nike free" shoes
-street soccer boots
-paid for B.K chalet.. $24 !!
-went out watching movies ALOT!! emily rose... chicken little(waste money sia!).. KING
KONG! etc..
-pay hp bills
-accessories.. (hair gel.. face wash.. body spray.. vain??? nOOOOOooo...)
-playing pool often..
- etc....
- basically shopping..

oh mann. damn. the funny thing is ah.. i oredi planned of buying the stuffs. coz i needed them. n i was cool with the price. after payment. i thought back, could i have gotten cheaper?? kennei!
niwae.. happy with what i have now.. maebe not gonna spend sooo much no more..

ok.. other stuffs to update about. just came back from a soccer match.. played for a fren's team.. kk, here's the word, "T-E-A-M" .. then, midway trough the 2nd-half.. received a bad tackle from the opponent. laid on the ground.. n the freaking thing is.. my own tem, NO ONE came to help me.. it was the opponents who came and help.. i dun wish to say this, BUT " FCUK!!! "

aniwae..i had a chalet on 23-24 dec.. was with my brothers.. haha..quite fun.. besides that.. i noticed lots of things happening during the stay.. my neighbours who were non- chinese.. non-malay..non- eurasians.. (get it??) were making a hell lot of nice mann! not only one side, but both! the grown-ups knew that their children were making too much noise, n so shouted at them. turns out, they were the one making more noises!!!

haha.. k den.. todae christmas day.. wanna wish everyone a very MERRY n BLESSED CHRISTMAS!!

ps. later going to cuzzin's house warming.. EAT!!!!!!!

2005-12-21T08:21:00.000-08:00

"mummy. nah. nie bdae present dari adam."

n poof! i handed her a framed-poem. in malay language of coz. im so proud of it!! it was her bdae on 20 Dec. was finding it hard to think of a present for her. coz, she basically has all she needs. so, i thought, y not get her sumting I MADE?? well. haha. cool idea it turned out to be. kekeke..

n so, the poem goes...

"Mummy,
Tiada kata yang dapat kuucapkan
Tiada bangga, yang dapat kuberikan
Tiada harta, yang mampu kukumpulkan
Untuk membalas jasa, yang telah kau berikan

Mummy,
Tak tahan aku, melihat air matamu
Tak mampu aku, membasuh peluh di sekujur tubuhmu
Tak sanggup aku membayangkan rasa sakitmu
Jihadmu tulus, melahirkan aku

Mummy,
Kau tuntun aku dengan kasihmu
Kau bimbing aku dengan ilmumu
Kau belai aku dengan sabarmu
Hadapi hidup, yang penuh liku

Mummy,
Ketika hati terbalut rindu
Rasa sedih menyayat pilu,
Ingin kudekap, hangat tubuhmu
Apalah daya, tangan tak mampu

Mummy,
Tak sanggup aku menyakitkan hatimu
mengingat semua, jerih payahmu
Hanya satu pengharapanku
Semoga Tuhan, mengasihimu

Selamat Hari Jadi Mummy."

n so, everybody go AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW !!! kwang kwang kwang. haha. i noe, its touchy. cool~ she loves it! n now, the ting is all neatly placed in the living room. right where everyone can see.. aahh.. its good to have that sense of satisfaction looming around.. kekeke.

n yah, ive finally scored again! woohoo.. RJC is OURS!!

aniwae..todae.. 21/12 ... went out with bros.. haha.. its an OK day lah. could have been better. BUT, no complains. haha

eh..ive been blog-hopping A LOT lately.. n ive noticed lots of people been talking bout what a blog is all about n stuff. some say this lah. some say that lah. well.. others, GOT NO OTHER things to say, so go tagging around making bloggers feel low.

hmmx...my fren HAIQEL.. he's blogskin is of avenged sevenfold stuff. n he blogs his way. sometimes talks bout wat he literally does.n sumtimes, thinks ABIT deeper n start blogging. but basically, its the same thing ah. nemy that. BUT THEN, got this bugger go tag him.. say his blog dis lah..dat lah.. n this I THINK started a commotion in his blog. TREMENDOUSLY, those hu dont tag often, can sudd come tag against that guy. wahaha. well..dat type of guys..err..err.. i shall not say it. my point is, let the blogger write watever he wants ah. EVEN if its BORING or MEREPEK or COOL. biar ar! n those hu wanna tag, pls dont go ard criticising..

n so my dear readers, i ask of u to go visit HAIQEL'S webbie n go comment. dun let him get affected by wat others think. help him. :P

well..klah, gonna have a family dinner tmr to celebrate my mum's bdae! haha. hope to haf fun eating! haha

chiowz!

the end is near..

2005-12-11T19:45:00.000-08:00

Lmao!! i just heard a conversation on radio, RI 89.7FM. scary n funny!!

a guy called in to the studio. talked with the DJ. It was Shah Ibrahim at that time. He said that he had some very very important thing to tell the world. And that everyone should panic.

(By then, Shah sounded worried. Me too had abit of goosebumps. Coz the intensity and seriousness in the guys voice soo soo hair-raising.)

And so, the guy talked...

"In our religion, there are several signs that conclude that judgement day is nearing. Some say that the sun will rise and set in the opposite direction. Others say that cats will no longer appear normal. This was what i saw.

I was walking home, all tired from a hard days work. I was at my void-deck approaching the lift. Then, at the corner of my eyes, i saw a blue figure at the staircase on my right. By then, i was already panicking. I turned. I saw. It. My worst fears were coming alive. As i neared the blue figure, it became clearer that it was a cat. But, i thought to myself, BLUE CAT?? standing still??

( shah was already saying, " oh god. no. u serious? " obviously with a scared tone. )

I was getting nearer. nearer. nearer. and when i was a foot away from it. It gave a sinister laughter. So evill and wicked i pee-d in my pants. It then turned around and faced me!! i shouted!! arrggh!! my face turned pale!! NO!!! NO!!! im soo dead. this cant be happening.

(shah again went "masyallah..")

(suddenly the guy gave a small laughter) haha.

i knocked my head against the wall! i was stupid! y did i not remember to bring my autograph book??!!!! arrggh!! its freaking DORAEMON!!! i want an autograph!!

toot...toot...toot...toot... ( the guy obviously hundg up the phone.) "

i could imagine shah's aner by then. he was so tensed up.

oh mann. thats very very evil and bad of him to make such jokes. when he hung up, i was soo pissed at first. coz, wat a joke to make. den, i burst into laughter!! wahaha. evill but good joke. dont get me wrong yah.

and so, Doraemon is the culprit in the end.

p.s it would be heart-throbbing if that thing appeared right in front of me under my block! :)

blinded.

2005-12-08T05:53:00.000-08:00

are we humans created by god in a way that it is inevitable we neglectfully neglect something? all the little details that actually makes life worth living? or are we given choice? be it friendship, relationship, doin your everyday chores or wadever. thats not my point.

aniwae.

i know myself. i for one. have been blind thruout my living years. i'll just share one of em.

relationship woth my old man.(dad)
-i know for the fact that my dad has a high degree of self-pride. i agree. he indeed does potray that image alot. he refuses to be torn down by other people's sayings or actions. the dignity in him is skyhigh. wad can i say. he's really who i look up to as a man. but sometimes, i feel the opposite. y? again i say, all these due to neglegience. u see eh. ive come to believe that my dad is not one who shows love to his children by saying "i love you" lah, by hugging and kissing you lah. straight to the point, he's not those lovey-dovey paps. however. he does spend lots of time with me. be it washing the car. training me in religous stuffs. providing me with enuff spending money. sometimes even getting me things that i asked for without question. this may sound materialistic to some of u. but u see eh,i felt the same way too at first. and then only i started questioning his love for me in my mind. i felt low. rock bottom low. but after much thought and reminiscing, ive come to accept the fact that what he does is his way of showing his love? *hopes so* aniwae. that is y. ive been blinded so much by the media(TV, moives etc) and also my friends family-life. they talk so so much about how lovely their dad is. bla3. and so, i expected the same to come from my dad. but now, i know. i know that thats how my dad potrays love. i shouldnt be thinking that, " im not a materialistic person. so what if u shower me with gifts or wadever? " i try to get the positives from there.

*p.s for those who kow bout my relationship with dad recently, all's well now. :) we are starting to talk abit more now. all these after i choose to neglect the negative stuffs.

so, u see now? whatever we choose to do or neglect, do we have power to control it? or issit god's control. or fate? can a human ever make the right decisions? and with that, i say this. its a saying that many muslims should know. " RHEDA dan TAWAKAL kepada Tuhan."
a translation for it, " accept what is given and let God determine ur true fate."

and with that, i conclude what i have to say bout that topic.

till then, chiowz!

viva la rasa!

2005-12-07T07:42:00.000-08:00

VIVA LA RASA!

haha. feeling so so happy these days. dunnoe y . each time i think of nothing, there it appears.

re-ignited?? wonders*

anihoots. ive been enjoying the whole of this week. TOO MUCH i tink. sigh. though its worthwhile, still.m my studies aint that great either. sigh.

okkaez.. gotta head to bed. sori for the short posting. chiowz!

nostalgic moments.

2005-12-02T05:51:00.000-08:00

i MISS the time when i was younger!! when i would be pampered by my mommy and daddy!! wen everyone would go "awwwww!!" when i give a soft shriek or smile!hmm, back then i was so so chubby. the pic above was when i became more unchubby! haha. i was playing with a thermosk flask! back then, a baby would find anything faschinating rite?? agree?? haha.

this was when i was 5-6 years of age! n once again, cooking utensils were the best!! this time, a laddle? wahaha.. eh wait, suga pointed out to me that i was pointing my middle finger? realli ah? cant see rite? i thought i was saying hi!! haha. aniway, this part of my life was simply the best. i clearly remembered having the most fun then. sigh, now? abit abit study. abit abit exam! stressed up! :(

and now. there i am standing with a baby in my hands. a cute one somemore. just like the uncle. erhem2*. nyeah nyeah nyeah. didnt expect the day id be the carrying a baby in my hands. :) love her! and her newborn sis as well! sooo cute. runs in the family i guess! haha. klah. now, bcak to the stage of ME.

HMMX. enuff of the nostalgian moments. haha.im heading off to malaysia tmr dawn. melaka to be precised. long time since ive been there. lets say since june? haha. had to miss a game tmr. wasted* anihoots, there'll be a game against MILLENIA INSTITUE on monday. at MI i tink. lets hope i score. NO! i KNOW i'll score. i mean, lets hope i'll score a couple! aaah. that sounds better!

oh yah. just an update on my gramps condition. he's back at home, after a very very very tense moment at the hospital. i was like, oh god.this cant be happening. not now! im too young. i was praying for him so much. i remembered being the first, togethter with my mum, to overnite at the hospital to be by his side. i knew i was crying alot. ALOT! if you guys still dun get y, its coz. he was only waitin for time for him to return to god. everyone who went to visit could see that. FORTUNATELY, now. a miracle has happened. he's back hpome like i said. but not much to be happy about. condition not that well either. but letting him stay in hospital also no use. :( lets pray for his health. :)

oklah. guess i'll stop here. chiowz.

btw, i'll be getting this bod soon! just u wait and see! haha. fairytale. but then again, maebe after NS. woohoo! haha

REMINDER: just the body. me no gay despo! :p

Bradd Pitt back when he was training under me. :)

voodoooo!!

2005-11-29T06:41:00.000-08:00

Was watching a malay drama just now. Sembilu. There was this particular scene in the show i kinda hated.

One of the actors went and consulted a BOMOH/voodoo-cian or wadever u call it to ask for help or wadsoever. She wanted to put some love potion on somebody to get in love with another guy.And she willingly paid the person a hefty sum of money just for a 10minute visit. wdh?? hmmz, and they're are supposed to be muslims. MUSLIMS..... M-U-S-L-I-M-S.

for those of u thinking, "voodoo? so?" ... well.. it is SERIOUSLY forbiddened in islamic teachings. once one performs these sort of things, no longer shall he be "considered" a muslim. tsk3. there is never an easy way ou to life. nonetheless, there's always a way. BUT not with black magic and stuffs. it ruins u i tell u! all these "salah-bawak" nye ilmu, no good to the community.

okok..i'll explain y im so hateful towards that particular scene. well. firstly, its sembilu. a supposedly good malay drama where the family can sit down and watch together. its televised on Suria. a reknowned malay-oriented channel. then, u show all these black magic stuff which is forbidden/forsaken in islam. the person successfully gets his wishes. wat does dat potray? well. den.. kids watch the show. other races and of similar races too. surely they'll have contrasting thoughts. kids will get into their minds, "well, black magic is alright. no harm." others would think," oh, so this is how they go about tormenting people. " and us muslims would think, " masya'allah. inikah yang mereka tunjukkan di halayak kanak2 kiter skarang? " come on ah! the show potrays all this sort of things, without even showing that there is always bad that comes when one commits such acts. sigh. i have strong belief in God. Disappointed.

Moving on. The holidays aint seeming a fun one. Seriously, lots of things to do. So little time. The thing im most worried about is my studies. sigh. i have to come back school every morning and study lah i guess. especially econs!!! y the hell i took that subject, only god knows. and yah, abit worried about chemistry. Ok this might sound a not so good excuse, but yah. id love to give it my all for soccer as well. goal: '06 A-div champs. too far? nooooooo. so yah, currently stressed up with life.

am i in an ESCAPISM mood? dangerous.

klah. gotta go now. chiowz.

Extreme makeover.

2005-11-28T14:52:00.000-08:00

heyy

a new blog, a new beginning to life.

welcome one and all to this humble blog.

updates coming your way. :)

till then, byez.